Basic fundamentals of the mind. Think focus and obtain. Nothing can get in the way of your mind, no one can get in the way if you focus strong enough, if you desire it enough. most important thing is desire to obtain, not wish not want. DESIRE. stronger. I understand why i did not follow through on Luna already... Is because i have doubts. I have fears. I have issues. Is because my sense of desire is not strong enough. "Burn your bridges". That's what i have been told before. "Before a battle close your exit route with fire, then the only way is forward! You win or die". I did burn my bridges before i started to go after Luna. I burnt all hope i had with everything else. Friends mostly shut off, Close friends kept at a distance, and well... some people i totally did not even go to contact. In my mind i only want 1 friend only want 1 girl. 1 Luna. Then more bridges appear and i keep burning and burning. "3 feet from gold". Don't stop whatever you are pursuing cause u may never know if u are just 3 feet from digging up gold or in my case, just 1 bit of effort or weekend spent from winning her heart. Success has the uncanny way of hiding itself in defeat. By passing through the final most tragic doors of defeat, you can see the most beautiful sights of success.

Well I've explained what i've understood in layman terms. Like a painting on a wall and i'm looking at it now. Well, i doubt myself... Doubt my feelings for luna, cause i'm afraid. I may spend 10 20 years chasing her and i may win her heart after that time. Or i may stop burning open my channels and lead a peaceful quiet life. Maybe the way she put it, i can never forget it. Asking me to dun treat her so good, or else next time i will easily be make use of by girls. Is like you are stabbed in the heart, still alive, struggling for breath and someone tells you, dont worry you are going to be all right or something like that. make your departure smooth and very... peaceful... I feel peaceful having put her down... Things u can take up u must be able to let go. I also dun want stop even if its 1 feet from gold. Cause i wanna open my channels and reasses myself. I need a religion. Badly.

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